Looking bald to go blonde

Now I can proudly say I’ve been free from cigarettes for a whole month! And what did I do to celebrate it? My sister came here for the weekend and she cut my hair really nice (thank you , sweetie!) and I’m in what seems to be a long process of returning to my natural state as a blonde. Having been coloring my hair black for years and years, there’s a whole lot of black to get out  before you get to dark red, lighter red, dark orange, light orange and then finally super white. Right now I have all of those colors represented on my head. I love colors, but to have them all in a rainbow on my head is not something I want to keep, so me and my sister went looking for the strongest bleech we could find in the city today. Tomorrow I’m giving it a go and hopefully I’ll still have hair left on my head once I’m done, haha.

I’m so sick of having long black hair, as a natural blonde it’s a pain in the ass keeping up with the coloring of it. As soon as it comes out just a little, I look bald. This process of going blonde will be followed through right to the end, no more black! Or red/orange/white as the current situation is.

I just hope that the bleech does the trick. Yesterday we used color extraction treatment and it really didn’t do very much… Just look at how superdark it still is after the first 3 cm (1 inch). And the fact that my roots are so white I look kind of balding is just creepy…

 

Quitting smoking Part 3

Got back to Stockholm yesterday and I find it harder to stay away from cigarettes here at home, where I am so used to the ugly habit. Last time I was here, I was a smoker. It is an identity that is not too easy to distance myself from. As I become ever more perfected at the skills of understanding the difference between physical and psycological withdrawl, I can now better understand what I must do to make this transition easier for me.

It’s been 17 days since I stopped smoking, more than half a month! Since October 18th, I have not smoked a single cigarette. Or used any other tobacco product for that matter.

I was afraid I would start smoking again once I got here and I’m so happy to tell you that it wasn’t hard at all to stay strong and far far away from those nasty cigarettes.